Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Twenty

http://www.nytimes.com/2010/08/22/magazine/22Adulthood-t.html?pagewanted=1&_r=1&ref=magazine&src=me

Saturday, August 14, 2010

The Invitation

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.

It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain! I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it, or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul; If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see beauty even when it's not pretty, every day, and if you can source your own life from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "Yes!"

It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up, after a night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed the children.

It doesn't interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.

It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you, from the inside, when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

"I love living"-Will Smith

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OLN2k0b3g70

Mirror , Mirror on the Wall.

"People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master..."

— Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love)

Arrange Whatever Pieces come your Way-Virginia Woolf

"Simplicity is about subtracting the obvious and adding the meaningful"-John Maeda


A year ago I felt like I was running on a treadmill going a thousand miles an hour and getting no where. The average person is said to have 60,000 separate thoughts everyday. Your thoughts create your reality because your thoughts determine how you respond to situations in daily life.I was always thinking and doing. I could never just-BE.

I came across a quote : NEVER -too old , too late,never too sick,never too bad to start from scratch and BEGIN again.-Bikram

Growing up I always felt like I didn't quite fit the mold. I watched television shows and found characters I could become. From Joey Potter to Marrissa Cooper their skin was much more easy to live in than my own.I thought a career in acting was a ticket to escape and be someone else.Turns out its a pursuit of truth and compassion for real life stories.After peeling back layers during my actor training I created a character to be me.At a certain point I just felt so lost. Id look in the mirror and be confused who is looking back. My mom always says everyone else is already taken you have to be yourself. Ive always known that progress would be impossible if I always did things the way I've been doing them. I wanted a transformation from the inside out. I removed all physical masks ,practiced yoga twice a day and kept myself present. You can only hide from yourself for so long. "There is just one life for each of us;our own"-Euripides

Its essential in this fast paced world to slow down and breathe. In one of Wayne Dyer books he describes a mind that is open to everything and attached to nothing. Open to everything means being peaceful , radiating love,practicing forgiveness, being generous , respecting all life and most important visualizing yourself capable of doing anything that you conceive of in your heart and mind. Letting life come and go as it will. Enjoy it all but never make your success or happiness dependent on an attachment to anything , any place , and particularly any person.

Lifetime pursuit of happiness. I often hear I would be happier if I knew what my purpose is. I think happiness is a choice. Its an attitude rooted in gratitude for what we already have. "As soon as you trust yourself you will know how to live"-John Wolfgang Von Goethe It starts with the question of ,what is your passion? What stirs your soul and makes you feel like its why you showed up in the first place? Whatever it is one can make a living doing it and simultaneously provide a service for others. Its hard to take the path less traveled but it may be worth it in the long run.We all enter the world with nothing. We leave the world with nothing. All of your achievements and materials can not come with you. Therefore the only thing left to do in life is ---give it all away.

J